A LONG WAY FROM HOME

Illustration by Hollywood Texas 2020 for www.queerpowers.com

The colonizer (YHWH) has constructed the modern concept of cleanliness. To the civilized settler, it is a stationary concept, a goal, an ends, a state to achieve, and to think about achieving, always. It is positioned as the opposition to, and cure for all things considered dirty, or of the dirt. Meaning the earth (mother), and those who are in direct relation (reverence) to it/her: indigenous people. “Cleanliness is next to godliness” is an indigephobic, civilized, settler mentality based on, stolen, misinterpreted, then reconstructed process of transformation demonstrated through the First Gender (indigenous intersex/intergender) experiences of being; reflecting the two great universal forces of destruction and creation. There is a great difference between cleanliness and cleansing. Being clean is not a holy or sacred way to be. The process of cleansing though, is a holy and sacred process, spoken by nature, and by the universe. It is the language of life itself. Being clean is a static and stale state, while cleansing is a movement filled process that is always in flux and is filled with purpose: change.


SOLVE ET COAGULA : to separate and bring together (the push is the pull, the eternal balance). It is within the process of cleansing is that godliness can be found, for cleansing requires the breakdown of what currently is, and trusting in the process of change to bring (together) the new. Clean is not a place, meaning it does not exit in nature. It is an unnatural goal. An unrealistic state. And at times today, necessary, but the colonizers perception of clean is actually sterility. And like sterility it has no life, is dull and devoid of nutrients. Its is no coincidence that not only has the colonizer afflicted indigenous peoples with its diseases (from which things like COVID-19 are an evolution of) since first contact, but is in of itself a disease to the being of humans.


Water is cleansing. Earth is cleansing. Wind is cleansing. Fire is cleansing. Smoke is cleansing. Sound is cleansing. Change is cleansing. Specifically, cleansing as a highly spiritual process of clearing what used to be in order to produce change is the very process demonstrated by indigenous trans/queer people for all time. This is alchemy. This is magic. This is dangerous and threatening to the empire. This is why the devil was created. Positioned in the dark, opposite to the light, opposite the clean. To make sure that nature, transformation, change, and indigenous movement are feared. Below (the Devil & Hell) as opposed to above (god YHWH & Heaven).


In Judaism, in Islam, and in western medicine focused Christian America, the non-consensual mutilation of infant genitals, performed soon after birth, is the colonizer (YHWH) cleansing itself of natural movement, the indigenous, First Gender (intersex & intergender) being and the source of knowledge it was born with. With this new body, and with access to natural movement denied, it can form and maintain a new alien (meaning foreign to human, or at least inauthentic) movement and subsequent identity: one always seeking to pursue a path away from its natural, indigenous self, through fear. Indigephobia is not only targeted at others, but originally (for the colonizer), at the self (the child treated as an extension of self as opposed to an individual). Indigephobia is the source of racism, anti-blackness, white supremacy, the patriarchy, the empire, the colonizer, the enslaver, the settler: self repression.


Actions speak louder than worlds. This concept permeates indigenous belief and is why most cleansing practices are connected with a very focused process, beginning with an intention and ending with an offering. Cleansing our descendants of the same nature we were cleansed of leaves us in the same subconsciously subordinate pattern and susceptible to an isolated (meaning away from indigenous), fear based mode of consciousness. Consciousness being informed by movement, or lack thereof.


Indigenous peoples world over have a spiritual connection with their home land/earth/habitat and do not consider things of nature to be “dirty”. Indigenous people who do circumcise as means of maintaining a “warrior culture”, know the intention is to harden a body for a life of war. This ritual is most often performed with the child’s knowledge at an age of becoming, or performed by themselves at adult age to prove their commitment to their gender/ or role.


The only land that the Human Being owns is their own body. Knowledge is not found in the brain but in the heart. If the heart of the First Gender is broken, then the knowledge is severed, and the land forgotten. There is nothing more heartbreaking to me, to my people, to the First Gender, than the assault, the mutilation, the betrayal of The Descendants. The Descendants are The Ancestors. They are born with the eternal knowledge. Age is nothing but change. Death is birth. Birth is death. All is always changing, in all ways. The human body is our way to feel, to experience, to sense, to process, to produce - change, the universal language, of the entire universe. The being of the human. This happens only through movement. Through the body. This land is not dirty. This land is of the earth. As above, so below (the push is the pull).


CLEAN
DIRT

​HTXXO